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mayflo ([info]mayflo) wrote,
@ 2009-04-08 09:06:00

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Back from the Funk!
My previous post was f-locked and some of you may have missed what's going on with me these days, so here's my brief RL update if it's of your interest.

Rl the first...
MDH and I have been having differences that were being accumulated over the months, which was a ticking time bomb. It kaboomed when I registered to Azkatraz. We argued a LOT over it, gave me grief like hell, it seemed endless. I even thought more than once that this was the end of our marriage. But that problem is now settled. But before I jump to the conclusion, there are a few more points I'd like to mention.


RL the second...
I finished my Master course! *hooray* Now I'm waiting for my graduation which will be in June :3 I was having serious issues with a couple of the girls from class but mostly they started ignoring me. And to this day, I don't know why they started behaving so childishly. It was absurd especially in a Master course where learning what a change agent was a major subject and because I would have expected a little more maturity to face the problems and talk it out. Not just ignoring people and be nasty to them just cos they didn't like something. Seriously.


Third...
My job. From February on, I became officially a freelance translator. The new beginning in my career gave me a lot of hope and excitement. However, the annual programme I had received from an agent got half of them cancelled. First, out of 3 events programmed for March, 2 were cancelled. And then all the rest were cancelled until further notice. D: NOT NICE. I was so counting on them for my future plans and it really shattered my high spirits and it left me broken. I mean, financially and emotionally.


Conclusion...
I had to cancel my Azkatraz registration cos I can no longer count with the job I was supposed to do this year. Guess I didn't deem the world crisis as seriously or as palpable, and it lashed out on me for my arrogance this time. Things are worse than expected. So yeah.

On the other hand, my marriage was saved just barely cos I cancelled for Azkatraz. Out of all the bad, I can still hold on to my husband in this cruel world. Still, that doesn't mean all our issues have been solved. On the contrary, we have lots to solve. But he finally seems to open up to dialogue. We definitely need to work on our communication channels.

And that's about how I'm hanging onto my life for the moment.

****

As far as fandom is concerned, the worst damaged bit is my artistic Muses. No smut would come to me. All the smut Muses seem to have abandoned me D: I know I owe drawbles since... Last year! OMG! >_<

But I will recover soon. I reckon I just need to switch to my fave software, Photoshop. I was using Open Canvas and am not used to it at all and is giving me grief T_T So yeah, need to do something about that.

I was browsing my older, deleted arts and got soooo nostalgic. Felt like reposting massively my older arts. Would you mind if I did that here? Would you mind seeing my old stuff again?

It also made me want to try a remix of my older NWS arts. I did it for my WS art once and it was so much fun <33

On the other hand, I'm participating in [info]hd_worldcup. I'm on team EWE so go read/see all the delectable posts and vote for us! If you're into that kind of thing ;) You can't miss the art posts! They are all master pieces <333 Super high quality stuff!

And I've got into new stuff. Here's my confession @ LJ. (Will open a new window/tab.)


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[info]lore
2009-04-08 10:15 am UTC (link)
Re: Confession - *SNICKER*

Re: MDH - Disturbing. But I'm glad you're fighting for what is essentially your right - to be your own person. Hang in there, because YOU are an important person, especially to yourself!

Money/Work - Bleh. I hope it picks up. I know translators are needed all over and constantly. You need a better hookup to the event coordinators.

*HUGS*

love, lore

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[info]mayflo
2009-04-09 10:48 am UTC (link)
Thanks for your comment! *hugs*

Hee, it was April Fool's so I couldn't resist XD Am so ebil >:)

We need to have a nice chat but we haven't had the chance. He's not one to talk so it's a bit tricky to approach, but sooner or later, we are going to face the facts.

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[info]elfflame
2009-04-08 10:24 am UTC (link)
*cuddles you*

I'm glad things are looking up a little, hon. It's hard when you're unhappy, and you don't know what you can count on. *hugs tight*

But we will all still be here when the muses return. :)

<3

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[info]mayflo
2009-04-09 10:52 am UTC (link)
Hi Elf. It was great chatting with you yesterday! Thanks for listening to me XD And am most certainly planning ways I can get ahold of Merlin :3

*hugs*

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[info]elfflame
2009-04-09 10:55 pm UTC (link)
*snugs* It was great fun. I'm glad we got to.

As for Merlin...
http://www.surfthechannel.com/cat/61406.html
All the episodes are there. If you don't mind watching them online. :D

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[info]ktoth04
2009-04-08 12:48 pm UTC (link)
I'm sorry to hear rl hasn't been great lately... but you will def get through it ok! and we never mind seeing old stuff :)

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[info]mayflo
2009-04-09 11:43 am UTC (link)
*hugs*
Thanks for your concern. I'm positive everything will turn as they should, too.

And yaye! You'll be seeing massive posts of my old artses! :D

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[info]bonfoi
2009-04-09 08:36 pm UTC (link)
Hi, Gorgeous One!

As to RL: My father's advice ~ Never go to bed mad. And...Never, ever make your arguments personal.

In all my relationships, I've tried to use those two pieces, and you know what? They work more often than not.

As to art: *squeeing fangirl over your works* NO SMUT?! WTF?! Oh, yeah, that happens! *LOL*

I'm working through [info]hd_worldcup slowly...I can only sit at the computer a few hours a week, although, I am getting better at typing with one hand (20 words a minute with the right one--so exhausting, but for my friends, priceless!).

Oh, one thing...you love each other. Remember that, hold it tight, and know that that is a treasure beyond all others. I do envy you, you know? *hugs*

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[info]mayflo
2009-04-17 01:53 pm UTC (link)
That's a great advise. But then again, you always give me wise advise *hugs* It's tough not to make the arguments personal especially when it's about your relationship. But definitely worth trying.

Yeah, my smut muses fled at the sight of teh funk *woe* Let's hope they come back rather sooner than later :P

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[info]bonfoi
2009-04-17 11:45 pm UTC (link)
My parents were together as friends and then lovers for over forty years. Mama always said that if you feel the argument getting personal, go to a quiet place and calm yourself.

And...both of you should to do this. Calm and rational, sometimes, we find out what we were arguing about is not half as important as we first thought.

*hugs to you and yours* Money you can live without...and yes, I'm doing it right now. You cannot live without your heart or your love.

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